so Jerk would call me and text me every 2nd day asking how I was and booking our appointments was my excitment to look forward to seeing his beautiful body and tall strong masculine physique and eyes was a turn on. the way he would touch me when I was weight lifting and he was so strong but not as big muscled as the manager who without a shirt was like arney full on bulk six pack and shoulders like a god, but I am strange as I like men with dark hair sometimes and just thin and tall pretty face looks but Jerk was strong anyway. he had me doing pelvic floor lifts to dirty music and wanted me to do that for him, and he laughed when he seen my underwear which I didn't do deliberately in the gym at all. my fantasy was to have sex with him in the showers. I still miss him. I hate and like him which is weird. but he is my perfect guy apart from the doctor I liked who also jerked me around after vaginally examining me. I am so convinced men are weird and unhuman. they always give confusing mixed messages unless the girl is drop dead gorgeous. love is so trife and like mayday, mayday, then they want out and later regret all the hurt they caused the serious girl who wanted the love over all the sex. so many guys have jerked me around. yet the guy who r**ed me was the worst I never loved. i just want to have sex with a guy I actually like. that sounds mind blowing, I think I would have given JERK at the Gym a blow job if he had asked, such a idiot that he didn't anyway, thank god he is gone.