I was sexually abused as a child by a very old man and he often liked me to lay next to him on the bed or on top of him on the rare occasion and I just became accustomed to this. then I was on top of my dad as a child of 6 and I think that was when they, ie mum and dad were worried what had the old guy living with us taught me. but they did nothing, sometimes only asking me was there anything wrong but never being specific.

he was a big big man very tall and broad shouldered. I was afraid of him but learnt to be sharp and wised up on what or when he would try to approach me. it took time to get confidence to protect myself. its just sometime I never talk about to anyone.

i had a sexual intimacy with this old man for at least 10 years that was rotten. I was pained and I still am by it. I never wanted those things as a child. It was frightening. I feel so angry.