Mind control - Time stop

I'm a 35 y/o man that has had very little sex and that makes me angry / sad / despaired pretty much all the time.

Some time ago I found the fetish that would come to pretty much ruin my sexuality, Mind control, this is the idea that you can change a personsons way of thinking to force them to do what you want (in this case sex), I realize this is much more about power than about sex.

Lately I have been watching time stop porn (from Japan of all places) where devious men stop time, have sex with girls (teasing them or not), and then leave.

These are basically r**e fantasies, mind you I don't want to r**e a woman, r****g is a violent act and I'm vehemently opposed to it, but the sexual fantasy of having sex (if it can be called that) with whomever I want wether they consent or not is consuming my waking hours.

I have become increasingly solitaire and isolated from society, on top of that I dont work (I'm finishing my studies) and I live at home with my mother, I'm short, fat, and not good looking, so I 'm pretty much fucked and beyond hope in the "getting a girl" department.

Depression is starting to get the better of me, so I might not be going to hang arund for too long...