Straight Male / 23
Once I was in a relationship with a girl who had the purest heart Ive ever seen, she was gorgeous but thicker or with a little more to love, she was italian too, and I mean her dad was actually from Italy along with her entire family.
She had one Boyfriend before me, so I was her second and it was amazing until I messed around and broke my own heart.
I must confess this, we were living in an apartment at the time on the bottom floor and it was our first apartment as people, couples or individuals. It was great being out on my own with her, we had so much privacy and grew so deep into love. I love this girl still till today, and I always will. She is my soul mate, I know we will find one another again someday.
Anyways, after a year of living together I became depressed and started drinking.
Id get on the computer and chat with girls, and flirt and try to get hookups with men, which never happened.
Id always be so drunk, and rude to her... say evil things and make her feel scared, I was pathetic. I didnt deserve this pure heart she held.
The one night my car got broken into by a friend who stole my stuff.
I went asking around and met a girl on the top floor who was new,sexy and interesting.
Something was bad about her though, i mean like home wrecker.
I got to know her, meanwhile im dating my original girl.
I started going up to her apartment a lot.
One night I went up there, and my GF came looking for me.
Her heart was so broken, she cried horribly. She cried my name, pounding on doors.
I peeked through the shades and seen her face. my body went cold.
her face in tears as she knew i was with another girl.
Her broken heart, it killed me.
After we broke up, I slept with the new girl but told her to F*ck off, she keyed my car and sugar my tank too.
After that, I sobered up and stopped drinking.
I maintained a steady friendship with EX GF
I bought her jewelery and flowers, gifts and sweets daily.
I wrote her pomes of my deepest emotions and broke down crying at her knees.
I shook at night crying after seeing how hurt she was,
I used that as drive to pay my apology to her, I didnt know I was doing this bad stuff because I was drunk all the time, every day and smoking weed. I didnt know we would really break up.
Anyways, we held contact for another year.
Id get a GF and id have an affair with My Love.
Over and over, we cant be together because of family.
I love her very much, and she still knows this.
She had one Boyfriend before me, so I was her second and it was amazing until I messed around and broke my own heart.
I must confess this, we were living in an apartment at the time on the bottom floor and it was our first apartment as people, couples or individuals. It was great being out on my own with her, we had so much privacy and grew so deep into love. I love this girl still till today, and I always will. She is my soul mate, I know we will find one another again someday.
Anyways, after a year of living together I became depressed and started drinking.
Id get on the computer and chat with girls, and flirt and try to get hookups with men, which never happened.
Id always be so drunk, and rude to her... say evil things and make her feel scared, I was pathetic. I didnt deserve this pure heart she held.
The one night my car got broken into by a friend who stole my stuff.
I went asking around and met a girl on the top floor who was new,sexy and interesting.
Something was bad about her though, i mean like home wrecker.
I got to know her, meanwhile im dating my original girl.
I started going up to her apartment a lot.
One night I went up there, and my GF came looking for me.
Her heart was so broken, she cried horribly. She cried my name, pounding on doors.
I peeked through the shades and seen her face. my body went cold.
her face in tears as she knew i was with another girl.
Her broken heart, it killed me.
After we broke up, I slept with the new girl but told her to F*ck off, she keyed my car and sugar my tank too.
After that, I sobered up and stopped drinking.
I maintained a steady friendship with EX GF
I bought her jewelery and flowers, gifts and sweets daily.
I wrote her pomes of my deepest emotions and broke down crying at her knees.
I shook at night crying after seeing how hurt she was,
I used that as drive to pay my apology to her, I didnt know I was doing this bad stuff because I was drunk all the time, every day and smoking weed. I didnt know we would really break up.
Anyways, we held contact for another year.
Id get a GF and id have an affair with My Love.
Over and over, we cant be together because of family.
I love her very much, and she still knows this.
