I went through child hood without ever having a close friend. I was lonely.

The man who took care of the yard must have felt that, and he would talk to me. I was a latch key kid and one afternoon after school he was working, we were in the back yard, he touched my pants, and asked me to show him my penis. He said that all of 'us' were circumcised and he liked how our penis looked. He took his penis out, it was dark, and he pulled the foreskin back to show me and asked me to show him mine. He touched my penis and he asked me to hold his and he jerked on me and bent over and put it in his mouth and sucked me hard.

We went around to where the deck was and he sat on the deck and sucked me. We were out in the open in the back yard, anyone could have walked in, or come into the house and looked out on the back yard, he sucked me and after several minutes I got the urge. I came a little, and he sucked harder and I lost my first ever load into his mouth. After I came he kept sucking me, only harder until he got a second load out of me.

After that he would suck me in the house, and after a while he got me to suck him.

Of course, it was the difference in age, but his penis was so much larger, and holding his penis in my hand and sucking him imprinted on me the right size for a penis. It is a problem to this day, I have a need for a man with a thick penis, preferably uncircumcised and I prefer latino or South Asian men. On a trip to Germany I had the opportunity to hook up with a Turkish man, heavy set, with a thick penis. He was too aggressive for me, I need to maintain an element of control, which he did not respect and I had my first 'bad' experience.