I don't know if it was because I look different acted feminine or an easy target but growing I shaved my head and looking like a white boy I didn't fit in with my Mexican family I was picked on excluded and made fun of called gay. I could in reality beat their asses if I wanted to but every time I got pissed off they got scared and backed off. that along with some other traumatizing shit that happened to me I was confused about my sexuality and didn't even know what gay was... fast forward my late 20 to now, I decided to try what gay sex was, at first it felt weird and I hated it. but recently I have come to terms with it, I don't consider my self gay but love the male sexual bonding. my ass is so malleable now that I can take a cock up my ass not problem and it feel amazing. it took years for me to be conferrable getting fucked so I did a lot of the fucking with many gay men. Now though struggling with wanting to get fucked all the time, what makes it worst is that I get hit on by other men, im a masculine male that behaves like a straight man so I don't get it... there are a lot of bisexual men out there or maybe most men have gay sex at some point and don't talk about it. anyways i'm proud my ass is so soft and malleable now that I can enjoy a good prostate rub, lol and that I have decided to explore human sexuality. I musk look like a fucking Nazi or some shit and never realized it before because Mexicans still don't belive me when I tell them im Mexican and speak Spanish, black men are cautious... but white men be all friendly with me and that is the majority of the people I have had sex with to be honest. I kind just accepted that I am a white man, I guess. living in the USA, there is racism but I never though I would experience it in the opposite direction. usually its the white man that is racist against minorities. in my case I feel the racism from other Mexicans against me because I look to white, and what pisses me off the most is people that claim to be all Mexican but they aren't even near what a Mexican is they claim it because they are brown. they were born in the US, their parents were born in the US, they have a parent from a different Latin American country and yet because they are brown they are the Mexican, and im just a stupid white boy who bumped his head and thinks he is Mexican. Fuck man, I can still get deported because I was born in Mexico (so where my parents and their parents) but all you brown fucks are more Mexican than the virgin of Gadalupe. what the fuck?! I know this is all over the place but I guess it all comes together from the bulling of being white to the gay stuff I decided to try out due to the trauma of being bullied and called gay. well I'm still a man and will beat the fuck out of some this homophobe racist fucks.