I'm a sex addict and I know it stems from me being abused (beaten not sexual) by my step-father and having and absent father as a child. I masturbate multiple times a day, I knew a lot of men I can have sex with. I don't know where to stop with technology making sex so easy to find. I know of a place where there are full on orgies going on each weekend. I know it stems from the abuse I endured, because sometimes right as I cum I relive gasping for hair and having the feeling of being strangled at the neck. I suppressed the abuse but did it by distracting my brain with exaggerated amounts of sex and stimulation. I don't believe myself to be gay and know is the trauma that has been leading me to obsessive sex. I find that a lot of gay men have some sort of abuse in their past and it makes it seems that I didn't go through half what they went through... still being abused as a child fuck the brain up in weird ways. now in my 30s I know I need to get over it and move on... its destroying my life.