Basically a straight married man, but almost my entire life I have had a secret desire to suck another mans cock. When I was a boy I would, and sometimes still do jack off and lick my cum from my fingers and hand. Also when I was a teen, I was pretty limber and could suck about half the length of my 6" cock. I have no interest in the entire man, only a mans cock. I am fascinated with beautiful cocks. My wife has no idea of my fantasy. She might freak out over the thought of her husband being a closet bi-sexual. But at the same time she has had affairs with other men, and tells me every detail of her sexual encounters while I go down on her as I hope to eat some of the cum from one of her lovers cocks. I get so horny eating her pussy or kissing her after she blows one of them, knowing that she has recently had another mans cock inside her pussy or mouth. What should I do? This cock fantasy is driving me crazy!