I should've been smarter. I was 17 and hanging out with a 40 year old man. He was a close friend of the family for years. One day I just started going over and hanging out at his house. We watched movies and had meals together. He never tried anything.
And then I turned 18. Game changer. He would tell me now that I'm a woman I can just wear a night shirt when we're alone.
It took a little convincing but eventually I started just roaming around in one of his shirts. It started with a kiss. Then a touch.
Watching movies became a challenge cuz his fingers were always in my underwear and I wasn't ready for sex. He would tell me good girl when i listened to him. After a month he got fed up and yelled at me to take off the panties. I was kinda freaked out and did as I was told.
From there he got more rough. He would hold my legs open, tell me to relax and it got to the point where he took me over his knee and slapped my ass if I didn't obey.
After enough slaps to my tender ass I just started giving in. In one day I lost my virginity and learned what a blow job and sex was. Including anal.
I was just a toy. His friends would stop by but I wasn't allowed to put on anything other than a shirt. And if he wanted to touch me while they were there I couldn't say no. If I did I would be punished in front of them.
I had to keep the house clean and always be ready for sex, and punishment.
After about 6 months he got bored with me and told me I had to go. I was heartbroken. I thought I was in love.
I still have nightmares.