I just gave my first blowjob, I'm divorced, been fantasizing about sex with a man since I was a teenager but thought it was just a fantasy. Now with the wife gone, no real girlfriend in sight, I've been watching gay porn and jacking off for months, I even bought a real cock dildo to practice with. I know a openly gay man, we used to work together. I have always found him unattractive. He's shorter than me(I'm six foot) he's probably 5'7, about 200lbs and balding, graying. Just not who I ever thought I'd have my first with, but, he's the only gay guy I know. So, over several months we talk a lot, mostly Facebook messages. I'm a mechanic, this afternoon I did a side job for him on his car, took it back to his apartment. We had a beer, started talking, moved to the subject of gay/bi very quick, he asked me if I've ever been curious, I said sure. Things moved along way quicker than I ever could have expected. He knew all the right questions to ask me, soon I'd agreed to touch his cock. He dropped his shorts and sat on the couch, his limp cock was HUGE!! Bigger limp than mine is hard. I was mesmerized by the size, I started to touch it, stroke it, it started to get hard, the head is super fat, very bulbous, the doc who circumcised him gave him one hell of a mushroom cap. Soon he was rock hard, it stood like a telephone pole with this incredible arc upward. Sitting there on the couch it was over his belly button. He said nothing as I stroked it, just said that with his eyes closed smiling. My mouth got dry, my own cock was rigid hard, I thought "this is it" I bent over and licked it. He just moaned "yeah, that's it, suck it" I started licking up the underside of his cock as it payed against his stomach, I kissed and licked his balls as I stroked and licked his cock, I kept taking the head in my mouth but it was so fucking big, just the head filled most of my mouth. I told him it's so big, but he said "you're doing fine, don't stop" and put his hand on the back of my head and guided me back down. I continued to lick him, taking my time, tracing the contours and curves of his incredible tool. He asked me if I wanted to line him, I said yes, he pulled a jar of coconut oil from the table next to the couch, pulled the lid off and tilted it towards me. I scooped some out, it looked like crisco, but as I spread it on his cock it melted as was very warm and slick. I softly stroked him, the full length of his amazing cock, I took his cock head back into my mouth, coconut oil has no taste, I sucked and licked his cock head as I stroked him. I stuck my tongue in his piss hole, I licked all around the cap of his cock head as I stroke him. He was now breathing heavy, moaning and giving me encouragement. I now had a rythym going with my hands and my mouth, I moved my head in a circular motion up and down on his cock head as I stroked him, I was now taking his entire head and maybe an inch ofcock into my mouth, stroking quickly bringing my hand to my mouth, he was breathing really hard, his stomach heaving and he groaned "I'm gonna cum" with my mouth full of cock I hummed our mmmmhmmmm, and sucked/stroked even faster swirling my tongue around his cockhead, then he tended up, groaned and I felt the first shot of hot, thick cum hit the back of my throat, I swallowed but another one followed, I pulled back on his cock realizing that his cock took up to much space in my mouth to handle the cum, I puckered my lips around the tip, stroked fast with a twisting motion and sucked in every squirt. He pumped at least six big shots, they were pumping so fast it was hard to count but I swallowed everyone like a pro. then it just started to ooze cum and I went back to sucking it and letting him leak cum into my mouth. I continued to suck, stroke and lick him, milking little drops of cum to the tip and tonging it off. This was amazing, his clock was incredible, feeling it explode in my mouth was surreal, he tasted pretty good, the only problem I found was that cum doesn't go down easy. This was over an hour ago and I still have cum at the back of my throat that won't go down. After I finished him, in between breaths he told me that was a fantastic blow job and that he can't believe it was my first, I told him I've been practicing. He asked if I wanted to go further, I told him i do. We talked about sex, this may sound crazy, but I'll suck him and swallow anytime he'll let me, but I don't want to kiss him, cuddle or anything I would do with a woman, I just wanna suck him off! He asked about anal, I'd love to be topped but damn, that cock is insane, itd be like a billy club up my ass. He told me he could be gentle, I told him I'd think about it. I'm supposed to go over to his place again this Friday night to suck him again and maybe let him fuck my ass. I'm excited at the thought, definitely can't wait to suck him again, scared of taking something that big in my virgin ass, but something tells me I'm gonna go for it. I'll keep you posted in a couple days.