Well now I am 68 years old. I was one of five boys. My mother, in her wisdom wanted a girl and she chose me to dress and pretend that I was a girl. I grew up wholly as a girl until I went to school and a girl in the restroom squealed on me that I was a boy.

From then on I had to wear boy clothes to school and my hair was cut short. But I wore panties every day and when I got home I changed into my girl clothes and was my mother's little girl. Fortunately I was slight in build and passed off as a girl wherever we went.

When I was fifteen a boy made out with me and when he put his hands into my pants discovered my penis and he beat me up. I didn't care, it felt good to be beat up and only wish he given me his penis instead. When I was sixteen I had a job working as a waitress at Walgreens and the cook cornered me in the back room and I was given my first penis to suck. I sucked his penis with all my might, I wanted it more than anything. He was a middle aged man from Lebanon. When he discovered I had a penis he fucked me in the ass using lard from the kitchen to lubricate me. I don't think any fucking ever came close to that one. I sucked him off and he fucked me as long as I worked as a waitress there.

My first job after high school was a secretary/receptionist at a car repair shop. One of the body shop guys liked fucking me and didn't mind that I had a penis. He liked sucking my penis too and we would suck off together. By the time I moved out of my mother's house I left with only girl's clothes. I refused to wear male attire, I had let my hair grow out and I wasn't particularly bearded and was able to hide it with make up. I used falsies, and mostly I sucked men off if the opportunity arose. I kept seeing the man from the garage with whom I fucked and sucked.

When I was 26 I managed to have enough saved for a breast job and go my set of boobs. They weren't particularly big, but they did the job OK, and I was able to sport sweaters and other tops to show off my boobs. The doctore gave me hormones to soften my look. It was about that time that I started to hear about trannies, men who were girls. I have lived as a transvestite all my life.

I suppose to most men I am queer. I have sex with men, I enjoy sex with men. In my youth I was very active, lots of men liked to fuck trannies and I enjoyed being the center of their attention.

I live my life as a woman on the west coast. I don't have any relationship with my brothers.

My mother understood from the time I was born that I was meant to be a girl. I am one in every way, except one.