After the big break up a few months ago I felt so lonely that i ended up getting with this girl that i didnt really like personality wise, and her looks werent for me. She is big, and im not saying big girls arent for me because i do like that kind of thing, but im just with her for sex and comfort. I have to break her heart sooner or later but ive been having affairs on her all this time and we have been together for 5 months or something.

I feel bad, I dont usually cheat but i made a bad move to get with her thinking i was over my ex when i wasnt and it was all really for comfort sex. I dont know how to break her heart but there are things i need and want to keep me happy..... i need that good looking girl who i find attractive in bed with me...

so i had to cheat, and cheat... im sorry dear.