When I was still living with my parents a few years ago our house was broken into while I was home alone. I didn't know anyone was in the house, I was enjoying being alone by hanging around naked. While I was standing in the living room deciding whether I should watch TV or if having the TV on would make it harder to hear when everyone got back, one of them grabbed me from behind and put his hand over my mouth.

One of them had a gun, the other 2 had knives and they threatened to use them if I didn't stay quiet and do as they said. The first thing they wanted was to know where my parents' safe was, so I took them to it, but I didn't know the combination so the one with the gun kept asking and slapping me when I said I didn't know until he believed me.

While one of the two with knives worked on the safe, the one with the gun and the other knife guy brought me into the other room and forced me to suck them off while he worked, then they tied my arms behind me and taped my mouth shut while they gathered up other stuff from around the house.

Once the three of them were done with that they took turns fucking me, vaginal and anal, squeezing my breasts, pinching, pulling, and sucking on my nipples. If I moved around too much they would start threatening me again, putting a knife to my throat or on my belly talking about cutting me open if I became too much of a hassle. And the gun, the guy with the gun put it up to my forehead between my eyes and told me he was going to shoot me because I could identify them even though they were wearing masks and I couldn't even make out their eye color or hair or anything. I screamed and wet myself when he actually pulled the trigger, but he had taken the bullets out when I couldn't see, and they laughed at me while I cried. Then he reloaded the gun and shoved the barrel into my pussy. It was cold and the edges hurt while he fucked me with it and told me that if I tried anything stupid the gun was going to blow its load inside me too.

After that I was afraid to do anything, I just laid there. They eventually left me alone to carry out everything they were going to steal, loading up a truck I heard them say. While they were in the next room I overheard them talking about kidnapping me, but not for ransom, just to keep as their sex slave. And I was terrified, but I couldn't help but think of everything they might do to me and I remember I felt really warm suddenly and I thought "well, if they do, it wouldn't be the end of the world, I'd just have to make the best of it" and shaking my head to get rid of that thought.

They didn't, though, they took what they came for and left. I passed out at some point exhausted from crying and being terrified and when I woke up my family was home and they untied me. I didn't tell them I was r**ed, I told them I had come out of the shower when they grabbed me and tied me up, but that was all they did to me. We called the police and I gave as much information as I could, which like I said wasn't much, and they were never caught. We didn't lose too much, and the more expensive things we did lose were insured.

I never really felt traumatized by what happened. It took me a while to admit it but thinking back to it actually makes me more turned on than anything else, especially the thought of being kidnapped by them. I used to have nightmares reliving it where they do actually stab me or shoot me, but even those stopped being necessarily nightmares after a while, which makes me feel like even more of a freak.

In fact since I'm confessing this I want to ask. Guys (or girls, I'm not a lesbian but I wouldn't have to be) what would you have done to me if you were one of them? Or what would you have wanted to do to me, even if you wouldn't have actually done it? Anything at all, I won't judge. And for that matter, anyone else been in my shoes or wish they were? Feel free to tell me about it, fantasy or reality, I'd love to hear it.