It really is not fair, it is a form of discrimination. Only once was I 'hit on' at work, had my breast rubbed and given the choice of getting on my knees and giving him a blow job. He never said it, but I guessed that if I didn't I would not be in his good graces. When you are 21 you get on your knees, you put his penis in your mouth, close your eyes and give him a blow job until he cums. I wasn't that experienced and I really liked it when he came and I liked that I swallowed some of his cum. I was 21 and it was kind of erotic even if I didn't like it, it was erotic in a way that nothing else has been erotic.

But getting back to discrimination, I know girls that have never been grabbed, not at work, not at a bar, not at school at a football game. They are not ugly, sure they are not 'hot', but they have nice faces and bodies. I have this one woman I work with, she is 39 and she has never been fucked. I thought my life was bad, I was fucked at 13 and he never called me by my name, he called me 'shit face'. To be 39 and never been fucked is lonely, that is how she put it. I told her about the day I was told to get on my knees and give my boss a blow job. She wasn't angry, she said that if she was asked she would do it.

She has never had the experience of a penis. She wants the experience, but who is going to give her that experience.

Another woman I met, we met on a cruise. She was there looking for a relationship. On that cruise mostly all the men were with women already, and those that weren't were creeps, at least to me. I was on the cruise with my parents who were celebrating their 40th anniversary. Not that it matters, but she was in her late 30s. She had never had a boyfriend, and had never had sex either. I asked, and she answered. She told me she was ready to 'settle'.

I am attracted to A type men. Men like my dad, and yes, men like that boss that had me give him a blow job. When I was 21 I didn't know that, but now that I am 35 I know that. My boyfriend is definitely an A type, and he and my dad get along fine. Me and my mom hang back and wait to be called. Funny how that is inherited. I have accepted it, I like to please. I don't have a problem with my role any more.