I am not proud of this but when i fall in love with someone i let him to behave badly towards me .
When this happens it is not that i get mad but i choose to not react .
I start to like it . If the one i fall in love hit me or humiliate me i will not get angry at all . On sex i would let him do anything he wants . I would let him to sit on my face , deep on my face , to fart on me , to pee on me , to spit on me , to pull my hair , to tie me and fuck me whenever he wants and make me his slut . If he wanted sex he would not ask me if i wanted, he would just say ''i want sex , get undressed now''. When i wanted sex i would ask him and please him but if he didn't want, then i would just accept it with no questions . I would kiss his feet whenever he wants . I would let him to sit on me while i walk like his puppy and at the same time hit my butt . I would let him dress me like a whore or with a manly suit . I would let him to put chocolate and candy on me or i would like to put chocolate on his penis or on his butt so i can lick both . I would like it if he put his underwears on my face so i can sniff them and lick them . The underwears would be worn by him of course . I fantasize like he is my magnificent king and i am his humble servant . I fantasize that he wears king's clothes and a crown (which i bought for him) sitting on his throne with open legs and down it would be me sucking and licking his penis and balls giving him so much pleasure .
And whenever i give him pleasure as a present he would feed me candy .
To have value only because i would stand near him .
I am embarrased and i feel guilty for those i wrote .
But the good news is that i haven't fall in love with anyone over 6 years and maybe above .
I wonder if i fall in love someday who would be to do these stuff to me .
But if would find someone that has basilica aura and he take care a lot himself and is handsome without beard or moustache and wears suit all the time and being narcissist and has strong personality letting no women tell him what to do or if he do sex with them , i believe i would fall in love with a man like this and i would like to do whatever he wants .
I respect any men who has friendly behaviour around women but i think i just can't fall in love with a man who treats me like a queen (i would be bored) because i want to treat my man like king .