So lately I have been reading and otherwise exploring bdsm content on the web, especially femdom and submissive sites. It seems I can hardly get erect without thinking or fantasizing about being forced into panties or made to suck off a strapon. Today my secretary was looking over my shoulder at some very heavy femdom porn on my phone. I didn't know she was there. She just made a little surprised sound, but she didn't say anything.

But this afternoon as I was leaving the office both my secretary and another one who is her friend were looking at me and laughing. I couldn't be sure they were laughing about the porn they found or something else.

Honestly, the thought that they were laughing about my being a closet submissive doesn't bother me. I hide it from everyone, even my wife, and it might be a relief to talk about it to my secretary. She is actually pretty cool.

But when I got home I immediately began fantasizing about my secret coming out and being forced into submission, and I nearly came in my pants at the dinner table. I am a mess