I was put in my first boarding school in the fourth grade. I sucked my first boy in the fourth grade. In the seventh grade I was sent to a boy's military academy. I sucked several boys, mostly older boys, and I sucked one of my professors. My professor got my virgin ass and I kept giving it to him whenever he asked.

I graduated and went on to college, ROTC, sucked and fucked my way through. For some reason having a cocksucker on your squad makes things easier on everyone. One big heavy set boy from Georgia liked to fuck my ass and he fucked my ass. I was the cocksucker and I was the one that got my ass fucked, so I was the queer. The guys that got their cocks sucked and the guy that fucked me were not queers. That's the way it is.

After graduation I opted out of a commission and went to work for a large engineering and construction company. I had my degree in civil engineering and I went around the world. I sucked my share of men, of lots of nationalities, Arabs were quick to have their penis sucked, Latino's like to fuck. I drew the line in Africa, I just never had any desire or appetite for black men. Small Asian men were OK, but primarily I kept it to sucking them off. When it came time to fucking I gravitated to American men.

The world turned on its head and everything came to a stop. Somehow, just raw luck, I avoided the plague. I stayed home, and stayed away, not even a boyfriend. After several years, I finally relaxed a little and went back to sucking one of my coworkers. He was very closet and we sucked in secret. He liked sucking me off and I finally got him to agree to give me sex. He was always so embarrassed, especially that he liked giving me sex. It was just wrong to him, but not wrong enough that he didn't have me suck him off or that he wouldn't suck me off or that he wouldn't get hot enough to give me sex. He knew that he was just as gay as I was, except that he gave it and I got it. If I hung my penis out, he would say Oh God, and he would grab my penis and suck me. He is the one person I got very close to, the one person that I had feelings for, the one person for whom having sex was about he being the one that did it. He is the one person that I surrendered to being kissed by.

But unfortunately he was never able to reconcile himself to the fact that he was gay. We were together for over ten years.

I freely admit that I am a cocksucker. Mostly now I am cocksucker. I am very careful who I suck, I like to be the first one ever to suck the man. It gives me great pleasure to be the first man that sucks his penis. It is like one of those surprise toys, getting him to stand still, to let me get his zipper open and let me get his pants down, let me handle his penis with my hand and let me suck him until he cums. I would say that very few ever reach the level of allowing themselves to cum. But when I get one that does, I tell him that it is part of the package, having a warm mouth around his penis when he cums. If not they might as well masturbate.

I don't want to lead anyone on, finding that otherwise straight man who lets himself be sucked is not easy by any means. In fact it is a very special situation when it happens. But it does happen, and it is worth the hunt. And more than one allows it again, and again. It is Pandora's box, once opened they can't put the lid back on.