i hate loving her, and i love hating her. she is a whore, a bitch, a fake redhead who says its natural. i hate wanting to be her, i hate that she's happy. i hate that she found it so easy to drop me for him. i was suppose to be her "best friend", yet, she ditched me for some guy that she had only talked to on the internet. they hadnt even met in person, and he sent her a plane ticket and she left that day, and even went to bed with him that day. i hope she gets an std. i hope she ends up miserable and i hope she never fulfills her goals in life. i want her to be jealous of me, and i want to stop being jealous of her. i know im better than her, but i still wish she was the one who felt this way over me.