Recently I've been jerking off while thinking about a genderbend version of me getting used and abused by other men. My genderbend has the body of a total bimbo, nice curves and enormous tits that you just can't hide nor avoid. But she's not a whore, so she's usually tricked and r**ed by men. Even though she feels pleasure, she usually doesn't consent.
My fantasizes revolve around my naughty, indecent body being groped and used. Men grabbing my huge tits and exposing them, while fucking my pussy, using it as a fleshlight. Whoring me out to anyone, treating me as a slut and an object. Raping me like in a hentai.
Most of my fantasies with my genderbend involve a similar scenario. In the beginning I'm usually hiding my body, even pretending to be male, and sometimes I am even accidentally transformed into a woman. Somehow I'm found out and exposed to random men, they undress me and humiliate me, forcing me to suck their cocks as they fuck my breasts, then cumming all over me. They then manhandle me, pulling my hair and grabbing my weak arms to put me in the right position to serve them. One of them begin to rub his dick in my pussy, teasing me while I beg him to not do that. He laughs, slaps my boobs and shoves his shaft inside my pussy. I scream in pain, begging for him to stop, and one of the men shuts me up by shoving his cock deep down my throat. I gag and cry, trying to focus in catching my breath with two cocks filling my holes. I almost pass out as the man throat-fucking me finally lets me take a break. I breath deeply, and feel strong hands taking mine and leading them to the men's cocks, forcing me to jerk them off. They rub their cocks on my face and boobs, completely humiliating me. Then, another man comes under me and makes me sit on him. I beg him not to, but he ignores me and slams his dick inside my pussy, double-penetrating me. He grabs my tits, roughly caressing, licking and sucking on them. I'm at my edge as all my holes are filled. Then, they all begin to unload their seed on my body and inside my holes. They take pictures of my exposed body, pictures they'll use to blackmail me. I lay there, utterly fucked and humiliated, full of another man's cum, and possibly pregnant with his seed. As his cum drips from my ruined pussy, I know my life will never be the same.
Part of me is completely horrified by those fantasies, but the other part thoroughly enjoys the thought of being fucked as a woman. I can feel my nipples and cock hardening. Sometimes I even dream of being r**ed as my genderbend.
I feel weird for having this thoughts, as they usually disgust me. But sometimes they can get me incredibly wet. I wonder what would happen if my fantasies became true.