Sorry for the rant, I have to unload. I have been waiting for this to happen, it finally did.

My husband's twenty two year old cousin came to visit. She is his second cousin, but never mind they are cousins. She came because she was having problems at her parent's house because she is not employed, she has a college degree and prefers to party. This is an old story and I am on her mother's side. I have know this girl she was eleven years old. And I have kept her during the summer breaks. We took her with us on our first summer holiday to the beach. I bought her first big girl bikini. Her mother is my best friend. To me she is family, no matter that she is a second cousin. I know her heart can only see her cousin and she is his favorite. But now the chickens come home to roost.

She gets to my house, I am nursing a two month old baby, I have two toddlers. I am looking forward to having her help me, I can really use it. Her attention is on my husband. She is there to serve him, make him a sandwich, get him a beer, keep him company. Anything I ask of her she does but with a deep breath and a don't pick on me attitude.

So, I am upstairs putting the babies to bed, nursing takes an hour or so, I go back downstairs to our room and she is on the bed talking to my husband in her underwear. Her bra can't hold her in, and her panties are a G-string. They are having a private conversation. He is entirely blind to her, she sees me and gets off the bed and goes and sits on the arm of my husband's recliner. If I can see inside her underwear so can he, but like I said he is blind.

One in the morning she comes and wants to get in bed with us. She wants to be hugged and held. I ask her to please think of what she is doing, she pulls her night shirt up to get in bed, crawls into the middle and settles in under his arm. I got out of bed and asked him if he thought this was appropriate. Yes, I made the mistake of letting her sleep with us when she was younger, but she is a full grown woman now and I would have thought she was no longer in need of being comforted.

I left, I went upstairs to sleep with my daughters. In the morning she is laid out on the bed, half naked meaning no panties, he is in the shower. I confronted him, yes he had sex with her. His own cousin. He had been out in the cold since I was eight months and I am not ready to return to sex. But that doesn't excuse him having sex with her, no matter how attractive she is and how nice she looks and how attentive she is to him.

I asked him to send her home. He asked her to stay. He told her that she could stay with us until she found a job. Move right in and be part of the nuclear family. She is sorry, she says. It won't happen again, she says. But she is fully attentive to his needs, her mind is only on him. As sorry as she feels she can't turn off her heart. As angry as I am, I can't ask her to leave. This day has always been a slow motion wreck waiting to happen.