I started cosplaying for attention. I ended up being a sexualized cosplayer. It paid my bills and "business". Although this was years ago, I went and deleted every last account of mine online and reading old comments, many did not like me. I was even banned off video game forums for people not believing I was not really into video games. Or being a "fake gamer girl". Many of you told me my facial feature were "scary", I should kill myself, and that I'm just worthless. I realized, this isn't the right people for me so I ghosted. Being criticized for petty things and being denied about who I am, it's not healthy. For anyone.

Many years later, I realized I'm just a sex symbol. And the worst part is, it was all to dupe you for business. I'm actually asexual and I find sex repulsive the way "normal" people do. I wasn't even able to select Ace as my sexuality on this site. When men would tell me their sexual fetishes and what they wanted to do to me, it was so disgusting and I remember all your names and user names. But I got what I wanted because I played you for all for business. I asked for donations and even had a donation fund for breast argumentation - which many donated too.

Anyways, I appreciate you all for reading this. Just like news and media, most of its for business. Trump, Obama, Clinton, Mao, Kardashians, they probably all have different personalities off camera. It's all an act for business. If I didn't act slutty, I wouldn't have made money. Those who have talked me recently hated the truth and do not accept how I really am.

My implants are gone and I play video games everyday. I'm online and none of you recognize me due to
dropping the fake personality. That's alright though. I have friends that love the real me and best of all, I have my partner who has seen everything from the sidelines and is still my BFF.