I will try to be brief. I have been married for 20 years. Ten years ago my marriage got redefined as a "femdom" marriage. My beautiful wife, who is 9 years older than me decided she wanted total control over our sex life. Never cheated on her. Provided for her and tried to take care of her. Guess it wasn't enough.

Being that we were both highly charged sexual people I agreed without really knowing what it all meant. Call me naive I guess.

Ten years later I am kept in chastity. Haven't had vaginal sex in almost two years. Sex for me is a strap on. Sex for my wife/mistress is a boyfriend she has. When she comes home from a date I am expected to clean her boyfriends cum from her pussy.

Recently my wife has announced she wants to watch me suck a real cock and get fucked by a man.

I have found myself excited, terrified and regretful I ever agreed to this. I can't leave. I have been fortunate to have a lot of success in my professional life and don't want to give up the homes, the travel, the cars or the money.

More importantly I am still, after20 years of marriage, thru all of what I confessed madly in love with my wife. The things are just crap. They are indulgences. I can't replace my wife.

I just needed a place to vent. So much for being brief.