I was never comfortable with guys in middle or high school. Every time it got to where I might have sex and lose my virginity, I backed out. Usually on the spot. I didn't trust those guys and felt that they were playing and using me. I lost my virginity to a man in his forties when I was 17. Felt so safe with him, so protected, it was easy giving it to him. Since then I've had a robust sex life with dozens of men . The youngest man I've slept with was a 43 year old co-worker. I am starting to feel the need to settle down, maybe even marry and have a family. There are a few men interested in a serious relationship with me. They are all about my age. I've been pushing them off but now I wonder if I should seek a younger man and see if one can make me feel like an older man does.