I went out with a guy I met through friends and on the first date he had anal sex with me. I was only 19 and I was embarrassed about it. I gave him all the normal sex he wanted after that. I went to him, he came to see me, he had sex with me one time when my parents were visiting. I married him a year after college.

I sleep with him every night and I like to be held from behind, to spoon with him before going to sleep. Sometimes when he is spooning me he gets an erection and sometimes that leads to sex. My confession is that when I feel his erection against my back I want him to get on my back and have anal sex with me again. I don't dare tell him because I made such a big deal of it. Plus I don't want him to tell me when he is going to do it, if he does I will probably say no.

I have started to get on my stomach and push my panties off and lay there hoping he will get on my back, but he turns me over. I feel stupid for saying this or for even thinking about it. Its kind of stupid to want your husband to do that to you.