I'm not sure how to begin explaining this but as long as I can remember I have had a tendency, or should I say obsession, to expose myself. I think it took hold of me as young as 11 or 12 when I first began to develop. It wasn't so much that I was aroused by it at first but as time went on having a male see me naked or exposed in some ways not only aroused me but took me to habitual masturbation. My mother thought me as careless the way I didn't lock and in some cases close a door all the way. Not only had most of my brother's friends seen me naked but other family friends and neighbors, young and old. I was lectured many times by my mother about modesty but I just continued my immoral addiction. It just continued all through high school and I would take every opportunity to expose myself always pretending it was accidental if confronted by it. There were several times I was reprimanded by the school guidance counselor but it was rare any of the boys told about it. I not only did it at home and at school but in mall dressing rooms and the recreation center and anywhere possible. I never had sex until I was almost 20 and ended up getting married at 22. Within two years we separated and divorced and even though I continued exposing myself my husband never knew about it even though a couple of his friends had seen me nude on a few occasions. I have a good job with a large insurance company and still try as often as possible to expose myself somehow. The ultimate turn on for me is to be seen totally naked which was much more difficult to be successful at. I date occasionally but other than that rely on masturbation for my sexual relief. My interest in men seems only to exposing myself to them and sex with them to accomplish it. I do at times feel ashamed of myself but whatever it is to make me feel this way is like an addiction to me. At 28 I was able to afford buying a condominium next to the pool in the suburbs, which is now paradise for me. Grass cutting and maintenance men were my first spectators simply by leaving my sliding door uncovered or windows open. I know them all by name yet never let on that I know they have seen me naked many times over the last few years. There are two of those men who have watched me masturbate more times than I'm willing to admit. There is also a neighbor how owns the condo five door down from mine who is out back smoking most nights. He has see me naked more times than any of the others and has seen me masturbate many times. No one has ever mentioned this to me or complained to management about it. I have plenty of free time and home during the day often since my job is to make contact with a list of private agencies. I pretty much can make my own hours during the day and take advantage of it. At the pool one day the guy smoking and watching me at night introduced himself telling me he doesn't see me around much. I almost laughed since he comes right up to my bedroom and bathroom windows at night and sees me naked at least 3 or 4 nights a week. Fact is he has watched me masturbate dozens of times, seen me shower and shave my legs and pubes. Other than that I guess he don't see me around much. He never before came near me at the pool but has no trouble coming right up to my bathroom or bedroom windows at night. Everyday I open the windows at the bottom and pull the blinds up enough for anyone to see inside. My sliding door has a dr**e which is mostly half open except for when I go to bed. All these guys are well aware of that now and I am able to expose myself naked almost everyday or night with no repercussions. I am careful and continually look at who is outside first before exposing myself. It does me no good to have a female see me nude and perhaps cause trouble for me. I don't know for sure how many other men have seen me but know its quite a few. The groundskeepers are the ones who see me the most and they seem to spend a lot more time caring for my property than to others. Its such an obsession that just recalling all the males that have seen me naked over all these years excites me. I know I'm not normal and except maybe for girls that are strippers don't know why I have this compulsion. I often wonder if other woman do this and how they react to it getting as aroused as I do. I masturbate so much I even wonder if that is normal for someone my age. It seems I'm never satisfied and years ago began using vibrators and other stimulating sex toys. When I know one of those men are watching me masturbate I somehow have several orgasms knowing I am so exposed to them. There seems to be no end to it and as many that have seen me naked I am always hoping some new guy sees me.