I've had my heart broken and kicked off a bad bout of depression because I couldn't control myself with a guy at work.
I've been with my fella for 5 years and have a kid together but I recently started working again and instantly clicked with an older guy at work. After a few months he drunkenly text me and we started flirting like crazy within 12 hours we where sexting then within a week I had fake overtime and we got a hotel together. He fucked me so well I lost my hearing and all of our kinks match. We are perfect for each other.
Except I won't leave my kids dad and he can't deal with the jealousy. Over last night it ended and he wont talk to me today.
I fucking fell in love with this guy but I'm a coward and a scum bag and so I've hurt him and me.
But my kids are happy and my bf will never know.
So now I'm stuck with the guilt and the loss of a relationship that I can't greave properly because I have no one to talk to about it.
It's all my fault and I deserve to feel like this but I can't cope in the slightest.