I am in a marriage of convenience. For me it is financial, for him it is to have company and a woman. I am not young or easy on the eyes. Life has not been good to me. My husband is 83 and not doing too well. There is no sex, and I have a lesbian background. I want to fall in love again, but finding a girl who wants to fall in love with a poor middle aged woman is a lot to ask for. And I am the kind who crushes on twenty something girls. Not a good formula.

My husband does own this house but we are looking into a reverse mortgage, all the other money is gone. With the reverse mortgage and his SS payments we can cover the monthlies pretty well. We are getting a 15 year reverse mortgage which would put him at 98. But I will be 73.

Life is just hard and not fair.