Hello there!
It's the first time when I am posting on such a place I am not the kind of woman who can easily confess a personal thing to a bunch of strangers but here it goes..
My story is that I am a 27 year old woman with a good job, went to college, I am happy because I am independent I love what I do but there is one thing that is missing in my life:love!
To have an actual partner that loves me, a gentle and caring man to hold me in his strong arms, I feel the need to be protected by a man and so on.
I realised how lonely I feel when my best friend asked me months ago to be her made of honour. I am really nervous and excited at the same time that I will be there for her at the wedding and I am really happy that she found a good guy that loves her very much but this situation overwhelmes me.
I often cry sometimes in the night because her wedding made me realised once again that I am really lonely and sad and that I will be probably one of the few people from the wedding without a date.
I blame myself for chosing career over a boyfriend, most of the times I declined love for my job, I was so absorbed by my work that I completely forgot that I need some time for my soul and heart that needs to be healed.
My previous relationships were nothing serious and were nothing at all called a relationship I actually haven't been in a relationship with a man before, only went on a few dates with some guys, mostly guys I knew from work but that's just all,nothing happened between us, I was too innocent and scared and with this attitude I pushed guys away.
Over the years I tried to become more confident trying to be more strong, sometimes I can, sometimes I can't be that woman.