I think my wife has lost respect for me in the bedroom due to too much porn, role-playing, etc. Our sex life is her watching gangbang or cuckold porn while I eat her pussy for an hour. She cannot cum unless she's fantasizing about getting fucked by a bigger dick (or many) and I'm either watching, going to eat the Big Daddy's cum out of her later, or watching and taking it in the ass. I can take my sloppy seconds after she cums in my mouth or if I want something tighter, I have to choose between a handjob or blowjob because she says my dick is too short to do both (which it is).
She has absolutely no problem telling me my penis is on the smaller side and that every one of my friends and her coworkers probably are bigger than me. The worst might be that she confessed her ex-husband was both thicker and longer and his cock struggled to get in her pussy, unlike mine! Her ex-husband! This newfound teasing makes me think it has gone out of the bedroom and that she may be cheating on me. Her schedule varies and she can some home pretty late sometimes. Her pussy is looser than usual and her willingness to say pretty brutal comments about my penis is not in character. She even makes me say during sex that since my cock is under 6 inches that she has the right to cheat on me. She keeps yelling, SAY IT! SAY IT! while I'm eating her pussy and I want her to cum, so I say it. When she rides me after, sometimes we can't even tell if I'm in and she will tease me and laugh, however I usually start coming, so she is training me in a way. She tells me she prefers penis extenders to dildos but I sue both. Either way, my wife is either way into big cock porn or real big cocks! Hopefully it's a phase, but it seems pretty clear she is use to my cock after many years and getting stretched feels good- her words, how can I argue.
The recent talk of me getting fucked and sucking cock with her also makes me wonder how she feels about my manhood too! I'm not gay, but I go along with it if it helps her to cum. All of the porn and talk I'm afraid has convinced her (and maybe myself) that she deserves a big dick due to my shortcomings (as we have discussed in detail).