Innocence lost. I was an incoming freshman in our small college and my dorm roommate convinced me to go to a party. There were lots of people there and the only person I knew was my roommate. A girl started talking to me and we ended up in this long conversation. When I realized it was past midnight I told her I needed to find my roommate and she asked my why. In any event I didn't find my roommate and I reported back to her worried and she told me to get a grip, she probably had hooked up with some guy and was getting screwed as we talked.

She asked me if I had screwed and I said no and she teased me that I was a lily white virgin. I said I was and so what and she laughed and came up to my ear and said she was a virgin, she had never been screwed. To tell the truth I didn't believe her and she whispered again in my ear that she ate pussy instead. I really didn't understand what she had said, and she kissed me on the lips and said she liked pussy, she liked girls and maybe I liked girls but didn't know it and why didn't I go home with her and we would find out.

She was on me holding my face in her hand and looking into my eyes and she said she meant it, for me to go home with her and we would make sweet love and eat pussy all night. Every time I tried to say no she put her fingers on my lips and told me that was the wrong answer, the only right answer was for me to go home with her. I lost my ability to resist and she was so insistent that I went with her. We got in bed and after a lot of prodding she got me to eat her and we fell asleep. We woke up naked and she took me by the hand to the bathroom and we peed and she brushed her teeth and loaned me her toothbrush and brushed my teeth for me. We were still naked and in the light of the bathroom she ran her hands all over me approving of what she saw and she had me touch her.

She lived with her older brother who was a Vet student and she told him to keeps his hands off because I was with her. Our campus was small and there must have been other girls who were getting it on together but we never met anyone. We just did our thing. She was right, I loved pussy and when I ate her I gave myself to it. The more time we spent together the more and more we got into breast play, laying for what seemed like hours groping our breasts and making out. We left going down until the end, instead of fucking we ate each other out. I fell in love with her and she was in love with me. We had early onset lesbian feelings.

After we graduated we moved together and set up house and went to work. We were older in our mid twenties and I went to a company after work party and a guy screwed me. It was spontaneous out in the parking lot. I was drinking and I had let him take me out there and he screwed me. I went home and the first thing I did was confess. It was really hard on us, it changed everything. Even if I hadn't cheated on purpose the damage was done and we drifted apart more and more. Lost without her I started to fall into the hands of the guy I had sex with in the parking lot and that just confirmed to her that I was serious about him and we broke up.

Only two people have been inside my pussy. I live a conventional life, I have a decent job, I have two kids now and my husband and I go to church. When he makes love to me I think about her. I don't let him eat me because when he does I get upset. I go to therapy for anxiety but I am really there because I am in love with someone else. I see her and we are having this virtual affair. She is willing to accept that she judged me when she shouldn't have and pushed me to be with him. What I want more than anything is to make intense love with her and it hurts to have to go home.

Breaking up my marriage and being divorced with two little kids is something I can't do. Not being with her is something I can't do. I am caught between my feelings for her and my guilt about my family. For now I am emotionally cheating on my husband and family and I feel I am cheating on her by sleeping with him. I don't want him getting close to my pussy but I have to let him. That's what happens when you let a girl take you home, you fall in love with her.