Since pretty much all my life I have been attracted to being around men, boys when I was young and men once I got older. I am a bottom, pretty much always have been. The first man I fell in love with was my Karate instructor but he was not affectionate and I got over him. My second love was my piano teacher, he was very affectionate, I loved being hugged by him, he would touch my face and smile at me and he had me sit very tight beside him during my piano lessons.

My third love was my History teacher. He made me feel good and I got my first kiss and I touched and sucked my first penis. I was hungry and he pushed me away and hurt me. After he pushed me away I fell in with a series of men becoming more and more comfortable with being gay and being a bottom for them.

But I suppose everyone has that one time when things just happened and the sex just won't erase from your mind. For me that occurred when I was in my early thirties and I was sent by my employer to a two week training in Miami. There were people from all over the world, the company I worked for had a worldwide operations. I met this man there and we got along. He was from Portugal, fiftyish, tanned, with large hands and short beard. He took to me early and we had breakfast together and then dinner the first night we were there. He invited me up to his room.

It was my first encounter with an uncut cock, he was big and he got very hard. It was my first experience with a 'true' man and he fucked me into submission. I suppose I was always a bit submissive but not like that. The sex was always hard, he ignored my cock completely. He sat on the bed and I got on the floor and sucked his cock. When he wanted to fuck he expected me to be Johnny on the spot and let him fuck. For the two weeks we were in training I was his lap dog, his errand boy, his fuck toy, his cock sucker.

His assignments were primarily in Africa and mine were primarily based in the USA. I didn't have money to travel and he wasn't interested in traveling to see me so I had to accept that he had fun with me while we were in training but he didn't develop any feelings for me. I never felt rejected, not like I did when my History teacher rejected me, I felt lost. But I had discovered what made me feel good. I searched out 'true' men that I could serve, be their cock suckers for sure, their fuck toys, their man servants. I believe I am truly a submissive type, I like being the queer.