Well, last night I had my first sex dream in almost 2 years. I am in a happy, loving relationship with a gender-flexible individual whom I sleep next to every night, and yet last nights dream shook me. As most dreams are once you wake up, it is pretty hard to remember all the details, but the focus was impossible to forget.

For years, I have been a pretty kinky individual, and have experimented with a lot of different things, very few of which I didn't enjoy. My S.O. tries their best to support me with my fantasies and desires, however they are pretty vanilla sexually.

Last night, was amazing: the kind of dream you never want to wake up from. One of my biggest kinks I enjoy is "stretching", I even stretch my ass whenever I get a free chance. I'm nowhere near the extremes though, if you were a doctor and weren't privy to my predilection, I doubt you would even be able to tell. My problem is that no-one around that I have been able to communicate with is into the same thing.

I was dreaming, and before me was a wonderfully beautiful woman, legs spread yet relaxed, completely naked. There was foreplay, as there always should be, but every time I dipped my fingers into her felt like magic. Soon, I was nearly fisting her, and it was amazing. The first time my knuckles slid inside, it felt unlike anything I had ever experienced. She felt so soft, and yet squeezed with an amazing amount of strength. It felt as if her muscles were pulling my hand inside her, like there was a suction. It feels like when you put your hand against a vacuum cleaning tool as a child and it just pulls you to it.

I awoke craving that experience so much that it's almost depressing. I know it is never going to be a possibility with my current partner, and that is the part that kills me the most. I can see myself marrying them, but should I forever deny myself my biggest desire?