I never had a real boyfriend before and I never been in a relationship with a man before and I never been kissed by a guy before because I am really really shy and introvert. So I have been single all my life, I wish I would find a man that would love me for what I am. I think there is nothing wrong with my appereance, I am self conscious that there is a problem about my attitude towards men, I blame myself for being shy, and I think I push men away acting like this not being very friendly. Honestly I don't know how to talk with guys how to arouse them with my charms which I don't have. Perhaps I am not interesting enough to make a guy want me, desire me and fight for me..I don't know really what the problem men probably don't want a boring gf. I was always the type of good girl that always did what others expected from her to do, respected everyone and talked only when I was asked. So I have grown into an adult with emotional problems, an adult who has fears and panic attacks thatI will be forever alone, I guess I don't have faith in myself I need to believe that everything will be ok eventually...