I never told anyone this happened to me, not even my ex wife knows. It's the first time I ever had sex.

When I was a teen in New York, I was only 5ft. 9in, never been laid, thin, no facial hair and wasn't old enough but I often made my way into some of the porn shops on 42nd street. I liked to get tokens and go to the booths and watch porn movies. I liked it all but straight porn, even saw a woman fucked by a couple of dogs. All girls with hairy pussies back then and usually if they made it on camera they had big tits. I was engrossed watching about my fourth movie and pulled my pants down and was jacking off when a long cock came through a hole in the side of the booth. I didn't know what to do, and had no intention of touching it but I did reach out for some reason. I grabbed it in my hand and it instantly got hard, it was thick and at least 8 inches maybe 9 inches long, which looked massive to my little thin 5 incher. I let go as I came to my senses and the guy bent down and told me to suck it and pushed his hard cock through the hole again. I didn't do anything this time. Then after a while his hand came through and grabbed at my butt and my cock. I pulled away. Again I heard "suck it" and he stuck his hard cock through the hold. Another guy on the other side told me to suck the other guy. I was surrounded. I pulled up my pants and unlocked the door to my booth to leave.

I was immediately pushed back into the booth by a massive guy, I recognized the thick, long cock that was hanging out with his pants down below. He got in the booth and locked the door and pulled down my pants and underwear. He said "You don't want to suck, then that's fine with me, but I'm gonna get my nut" He rubbed some lotion on my butthole as I was starting to cry, I begged him not to do this. I couldn't move he had me pushed up against the wall on one side. Then I felt it, begging him, offering to suck him, did not good. He was r****g me inside that booth. I could hear the guy from the other side encouraging him to "give it to him, give it to him good the little tease bitch". Then I felt a mouth on my cock, I was at one of the holes and someone had gone into the booth and was sucking my cock as I was getting r**ed by this massive man. The pain was terrible, I was crying and moving, begging him to stop, offering him anything. By now he was whispering in my ear as he was kissing my neck and ears. He whispered dirty, terrible things to me. Called me a cocktease, a bitch, his little sissy boy, his cumhole as the r**e went on and on. The pain eased and especially when I shot down the guys throat that was sucking my cock. After what seemed like an hour but was probably only 10 to 15 minutes the rapist picked up his pace and was pounding in and out of me so hard it was making the walls shake. Then one final thrust and I could feel him shooting his cum in me. As he pulled out of me he just said "Don't tease real men anymore baby and it'll go easier on ya". With that he unlocked the door and left, and two other men came in. I resigned and they both fucked me and I could finally leave.

I made my way home, and once in the apartment, I took out the trash right away and put it down the chute in the hall. I did it because I had shit, cum and blood in my underwear and didn't want anyone to see it and have to explain what happened, and why I was in that place anyway. I went back in two days and nothing more happened, the third day I let a guy suck me off through one of the holes. A couple days later I went back again and I recognized my first rapist. I turned to go away and he came up to me and grabbed my arm. Pulling me to the end of the row of booths, he said he liked me and that he wanted me to "help him out" again. I didn't want to and told him so, his reply was that we could do it rough and I get hurt, or easy and I just take it. All I said was "easy". He told me to pull my pants down below my butt and to hold this little jar of Vaseline in my hand and go down to the middle of the booths with him. So exposed with guys laughing and pointing at my small cock, and everyone realizing I was going with this guy to let him fuck me, I picked a booth in the middle and he told me to lube up. With the door open I lubed, he dropped his pants and told me to bend over. He fucked me with at least 5 guys watching through the open door and another ran around and stuck his cock in my mouth through the hole in the wall. He came in my mouth and was replaced by another who did the same. Then it was time for the rough punishing moves in my ass followed by that final grunt, and again I felt a release of his sperm inside me. He left his cock in me for several minutes talking very casually about how he was my first and telling everyone what a good sissy I was, that I was his cumhole. He took out a marker and wrote CUM on one of my ass cheeks, and HOLE on the other. Then he pulled out whispering for me to be there again in two days. As he left the guys were lined up for their turns.

For almost 2 years I went to that place, and got gangfucked almost everytime. My first guy was there till I stopped going, and he stopped fucking me after I got fucked by so many. I would suck, get fucked, got sucked a few times, and was everyones sissy whore. When I was 17 I got laid by a girl, and loved it, loved pussy, loved her mouth, and then I pushed and fucked her in her ass. She wasn't willing and that ended right then. After that I met a few girls, was getting laid and didn't go back to the theaters. Soon it was aids all over the news, and I stayed away from those booths, and other guys.

I've been divorced now for almost 2 years, no pussy in site and I'd like to get fucked again just to have sex of any kind. But that was my first sex, no one in my life knows about it, just me and the several guys who first r**ed me then just participated in my gangfucks.