Straight Male / 48
Is it true that you can fall in love at first sight ? I'm not saying I have, but somethings happened to me. I am a professional DJ both on local FM Radio, and live in pubs, clubs, functions I e Birthday parties & Weddings etc, I have been since 1989. Much as I would have, or could have done, or would not have done, was sleep around, simply because it's really not practical.
More often than not, I have to take the equipment out and with me, once I have finished the gig. This can take up to an hour ,depending on the size of the venue, so it would mean any prospective girlfriend/ groupie, would have to wait outside until I was ready to leave, so as I said most of the time it's a non starter.
I have had my one night stands , but not as frequently as people tend to think, I was married for 17 years but got divorced, but not because of infidelity, and even after that, it was a while before I came to terms with it. I did meet and have some relationships but short term, because there is always the trust issues that I have already mentioned.
However about two years after my divorce, I met a woman who was in the throes of a divorce, we began a relationship which lasted 12 years, because she suddenly became unwell, and was diagnosed with cancer , and it was terminal, she passed away four weeks later, we had a little girl, who was 5 when her mum passed away, and I have raised her on my own since then, that was 13 years ago.
I have had brief ' flings ' ( 4 or 5 )since then, lasting no more than a few weeks, and I've kind of given up really, as I'm a bit too old for the loving game now, or so I thought. Recently at a function I was doing I noticed this woman sitting on her own, and she was in my opinion a good looking lass, and when she stood up and walked to the bar, I also saw she had legs to die for ( not the skinny type or thunder thighs but nice and shapely, the type that I would normally go for ) as she was wearing a short skirt.
She must have noticed me looking at her, because for the rest of the night she kept looking at me, and I couldn't keep my eyes of her, I don't consider myself a hunk or good looking , quite the opposite in fact, so I'm not really confident around the fairer sex, especially if I fancy them. Maybe this is why I'm on my own. Never the less I couldn't keep my eyes of her all night, and she was always looking at me.
Eventually she came up and asked me to play a song for her, which I happily did, then she asked me to play some more, again I did so, finally just before I finished she asked me to play Maria Carey - All I want For Christmas Is You, and emphasised the You, so I duly played it, and she asked me to dance with her. I never usually do, because me dancing is not something you want to see.
We started talking and I quickly found out her name was Lynn, and that she was single in her late 40's. I was shocked if I'm honest, because I thought she was 30 ish. One thing of no doubt was that she was a sexy attractive woman, I told her so, and I also said to her that I could not believe she was on her own, because I thought she was lovely, and she is, believe me.
I had to return to the stage as the music was about to finish, unknown to me Lyn had followed me there, it was only after I put the next track on, that I saw her standing in the wing of the stage, so I went to her, and she said ' you do know I fancy you, or are you gay ? ' well I'm certainly not gay I said and then I blurted out how much I fancied her, Lynn then said to me ' well why don't you do something about it.
I was a wee bit stunned, because as I said previously this sort of thing never happens to me ,or very rarely, anyway I said do you fancy going for a late night Pizza or something, she immediately said of course. I then said to her you will need to wait til I load the gear when I'm finished, she said that's fine.
Upshot of this is we went for a late night pizza, went back to her place and had the pizza, then we kissed and had wee fumble, then went to bed, where we had great sex, I was on her, she straddled me, this lasted may 90 minutes, I went home the following day, and she came with me insisting on cooking me dinner, we had a really nice day together, eventually I took her home, but I didn't stay, because she was working the next morning.
She phoned me from her work the next day, I phoned her later that night, and the same over the next two days, we went out for a meal the following night, my daughter stayed at her sisters, Lynn stayed over at mine. It's early days, but I'm in a Kylie Minogue song situation, I e I cant get her out of my head, I keep thinking about her all the time, to be honest I've either fallen in love at first sight or I've become infatuated with her, do I tell her or shut up, what if she sees me as just a fling ? What if she's looking for commitment ? I'm now behaving like an immature bloody schoolboy and I havnt a blasted clue what I'm doing.
One things for sure I want her, I want to be with her, I don't really know what to do, yes I'm scared I might f**k things up, at my age you would think I should know, but I don't, the only thing I know for sure, is that I want to be with her, it just feels so right, I feel like I have known her for a long time, she says that she feels at ease with me, and that this feels right to her, fingers crossed it is.
More often than not, I have to take the equipment out and with me, once I have finished the gig. This can take up to an hour ,depending on the size of the venue, so it would mean any prospective girlfriend/ groupie, would have to wait outside until I was ready to leave, so as I said most of the time it's a non starter.
I have had my one night stands , but not as frequently as people tend to think, I was married for 17 years but got divorced, but not because of infidelity, and even after that, it was a while before I came to terms with it. I did meet and have some relationships but short term, because there is always the trust issues that I have already mentioned.
However about two years after my divorce, I met a woman who was in the throes of a divorce, we began a relationship which lasted 12 years, because she suddenly became unwell, and was diagnosed with cancer , and it was terminal, she passed away four weeks later, we had a little girl, who was 5 when her mum passed away, and I have raised her on my own since then, that was 13 years ago.
I have had brief ' flings ' ( 4 or 5 )since then, lasting no more than a few weeks, and I've kind of given up really, as I'm a bit too old for the loving game now, or so I thought. Recently at a function I was doing I noticed this woman sitting on her own, and she was in my opinion a good looking lass, and when she stood up and walked to the bar, I also saw she had legs to die for ( not the skinny type or thunder thighs but nice and shapely, the type that I would normally go for ) as she was wearing a short skirt.
She must have noticed me looking at her, because for the rest of the night she kept looking at me, and I couldn't keep my eyes of her, I don't consider myself a hunk or good looking , quite the opposite in fact, so I'm not really confident around the fairer sex, especially if I fancy them. Maybe this is why I'm on my own. Never the less I couldn't keep my eyes of her all night, and she was always looking at me.
Eventually she came up and asked me to play a song for her, which I happily did, then she asked me to play some more, again I did so, finally just before I finished she asked me to play Maria Carey - All I want For Christmas Is You, and emphasised the You, so I duly played it, and she asked me to dance with her. I never usually do, because me dancing is not something you want to see.
We started talking and I quickly found out her name was Lynn, and that she was single in her late 40's. I was shocked if I'm honest, because I thought she was 30 ish. One thing of no doubt was that she was a sexy attractive woman, I told her so, and I also said to her that I could not believe she was on her own, because I thought she was lovely, and she is, believe me.
I had to return to the stage as the music was about to finish, unknown to me Lyn had followed me there, it was only after I put the next track on, that I saw her standing in the wing of the stage, so I went to her, and she said ' you do know I fancy you, or are you gay ? ' well I'm certainly not gay I said and then I blurted out how much I fancied her, Lynn then said to me ' well why don't you do something about it.
I was a wee bit stunned, because as I said previously this sort of thing never happens to me ,or very rarely, anyway I said do you fancy going for a late night Pizza or something, she immediately said of course. I then said to her you will need to wait til I load the gear when I'm finished, she said that's fine.
Upshot of this is we went for a late night pizza, went back to her place and had the pizza, then we kissed and had wee fumble, then went to bed, where we had great sex, I was on her, she straddled me, this lasted may 90 minutes, I went home the following day, and she came with me insisting on cooking me dinner, we had a really nice day together, eventually I took her home, but I didn't stay, because she was working the next morning.
She phoned me from her work the next day, I phoned her later that night, and the same over the next two days, we went out for a meal the following night, my daughter stayed at her sisters, Lynn stayed over at mine. It's early days, but I'm in a Kylie Minogue song situation, I e I cant get her out of my head, I keep thinking about her all the time, to be honest I've either fallen in love at first sight or I've become infatuated with her, do I tell her or shut up, what if she sees me as just a fling ? What if she's looking for commitment ? I'm now behaving like an immature bloody schoolboy and I havnt a blasted clue what I'm doing.
One things for sure I want her, I want to be with her, I don't really know what to do, yes I'm scared I might f**k things up, at my age you would think I should know, but I don't, the only thing I know for sure, is that I want to be with her, it just feels so right, I feel like I have known her for a long time, she says that she feels at ease with me, and that this feels right to her, fingers crossed it is.
