I am here because I am frustrated and the Holidays are here and I will be sleeping alone again. I am 38, I am a lesbian and I have been in love with this girl for five years. Of all of my crushes this is the worst of all, but she spurns me and sleeps with of all things her 50 year old boss. I can't compete with him, he buys her things, takes her on vacations, pays her real well for her job, way above what that job should pay and he has a dick and I don't. She likes dick. It is bad enough that she likes dick, when I offered her my love and affection she was very explicit about her likes and she turned up her nose at being affectionate with another woman. Not that she has ever tried it.

I don't want to sound like I am some stalker, I am not. I am relentless in my pursuit, she has no business with a 50 year old man, he is using her for his pleasure. And I don't buy her argument that he is sweet with her, he is an old man and she is a sweet young woman of 26. Having that dirty old man sleep with her is disgusting to me, it is bad enough that she is letting some man have sex with her, but he is an old man and he can't possibly be attractive to her.

I am not speaking without knowledge, I once let a man have sex with me. Sure this was back when I was in my early twenties and I wasn't sure. When he put his dick in my mouth I gagged, and not because he was in my throat, just having his dick in my mouth made me gag. Having his dick in me and being trapped under him was also gag material but I held my nose and 'took' it. Taking a dick is just about the most difficult self control thing you can do.

I asked her to come be with me. I was polite, I can offer her a nice place to live, I offer her my unencumbered love, my complete affection, I am much closer to her age so we can enjoy being out together, it is not uncommon for an age difference between women in my circle, in fact it is common for an older woman to have a younger woman as her companion. It cannot look anywhere as bad as a 26 year old hanging on the arm of a 50 year old man.

Now I am going to confess something too, this old man is the man that gave me dick when I was a young woman finding my way in the world. He is not at all happy that I want to be with his lovey dove, he doesn't really want her he is denying her to me. He intentionally gives her affection in front of me, he intentionally talks dirty to her in front of me, he intentionally tells her that all I want is pussy and I am not woman enough to take a dick. He tells her in front of me not to let me get to her pussy, that he and he alone has rights to her pussy. Like I said he talks dirty to her in front of me. He is doing this because I asked for a divorce and told him I couldn't take his dick anymore and he says I turned to the dark side.

I am spending this Holiday alone in my bed, while he is enjoying himself with her and shoving it in my face.

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by Anonymous on Dec 22, 2018 at 7:34 AM

Life is a bitch.

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