My husband and I grew up very religious. I've out grown it, he has gotten more invested. We were virgins when we married. Were still virgins 8 months later. Our minister had to talk him into consummating the marriage because he believes that sexual intercourse is r**e. He believes all sexual pleasure is a sin. He believes that touching my breasts, that oral sex and penetrative sex are all too kinky. He likes to dry hump fully clothed until he cums after which he prays for forgiveness.

I never felt that sex itself was a sin. i believed that sex outside of marriage was a sin. I hated that I had desires that were so tough to control. I would masturbate to orgasm and would think I was damned for enjoying it. Then I got married and looked forward to sex and after 8 years I've had actual sex five times. This resulted in two children. Since penetrative sex is r**e and too kinky it's only for procreation.

I met a woman at work who thought I was insane. After a lot of conversations about her sex life, I tried to get my husband to loosen up. Didn't work. He thought I was under Satan's influence. My sexual frustration was effective my entire life. My friend and I went out. She knew a couple guys who met up with us. It was a set up. One of the guys paid me a lot of attention. We went to my friend's place. The man kissed me, touched me. I resisted but his hands and passion. My friends kept encouraging me and insisting I just touch him or let him touch me. It was too much.

He suckled my breasts, used his fingers between my legs, alcohol lowered my resistance and he gave me oral sex. My god. Then, he gave me sex. I could never go back to what I had before. Two years later, I've been having sex with other men whenever I can manage it. I know it's a sin but I've improved my work life to where I think I can support myself with child support and I'm filing for divorce soon. I can't live with him and his nonsense anymore.