My mother never said a word to anyone to the few times we experienced together. It all occurred do to her wish to straighten me out so to speak. When I was 14 I was r**ed by a mature man of around 40 something who was drunk one night around 2 am when he drove by seeing me dressed up as my mother. I learned about anal and oral sex that night. I didn't tell my mother but shared with my Aunt a sister of my mother's. She then told my mother. since I had shared everything with my Aunt she also informed my mother about my dressing schedule too. Which she used to show up at the house unexpectedly in the middle of the day. And I was of course fully dressed in her clothes, including her wig and make-up. Her first words you look just like me. I almost died right then and there. She looked me over and looked under the dress seeing the open bottom girdle and stocking being held up by the garters. She commented on how I had the garters and showed how to do then correctly. It was from there she lifted her own dress showing me her girdle and her stockings and how they were held up. I could see her panty crotch and her very dark area underneath. She took notice and asked if i had ever seen a naked woman? I sad no, she asked me then how do you know you want to be a woman? She stood up and lowered her zipper then stepped out out of her dress. She stood in front of me in her long slip. She then lifted the slip over her head and there she was in her playtex white bra, and her white Sears open bottom girdle. She kicked off her heels, then unhooked her stockings, she sat as she slipped them off. Then she wiggled out out of her girdle. She was now in her blue lace panties. She unhooked her bra and slipped out of it. I was looking at her very full breasts. Then she just sort of said matter of factually. One more item and took off her panties. I had never seen a naked woman and here she was my mother. She then said is this what you expect and what you want to be. I just said yes. She told me to come over to her she sat on the bed and opened her legs wide. She took her right hand and spread her hair apart and said see this. you don't have this. She then lifted my dress up and hiked up the girdle, pulled the panties to one side and exposed my dick which was hard. Something she took notice of. You have a penis and you insert that in my vagina so that I can get pregnant. Like that man insert into me? She said yes but he violated your ass. She told me to take off the dress, then the girdle, then climb up with her on the bed, she pulled me between her legs and stroked me some guiding me between her legs and rubbing on her moist lips, she said lower your hips. I went right in her. she then placed her hands on my lower hips and started to pump me in and out, I got the idea. She reached up and pulled my face down and kissed me. I was starting to get a strange feeling and she really picked up the pace. And I let loose into her. She said yes give it to me. When I was done she held me tight and said you just made love to me and could give me a baby. That is what men and women do. I not sure why I but I started to suckle her nipples and she said you used to do that when you were a baby. i got hard again and was still in her. She felt it. I stared my own hips moving and she let me. It took a bit but I filled her again. She said I want you to be son not my daughter. As I got off her I looked up at her and asked so will you use your mouth like that man made me do. She replied we will see. She sent me to my bathroom to wash as she went into her own bathroom. When I came out she was in the living room wearing a silk robe. She called me over and took off my towel and sat me down, she laid me down on the sofa and opened my legs then lowered her face, she went about sucking and stroking me. It felt so very good. I knew then way that man made me do it. I released into her mouth. She looked at me then said see I am a woman that is what a woman does. After she went to go get dressed up and told me to get dressed. Afterwards she said this is between us? I agreed real fast. We would do this 4 more times, but I still had the internal yearning to be a female. She never spoke it again and she never told anyone that I am aware of.
This stayed between us never spoken about until she was 66 and dealing with Cancer. She asked one day while I was visiting about dressing. I just looked at her. She removed the blanket and exposed her breasts you want these don't you? I said yes, she then pushed the blanket down to her knees and exposed her panties you want this too don't you? I said yes. She told me to come over next to her, she reached up and took my hand said you may be a male but I knew you were a girl from the time you were about 3. I wanted to change you, I am sorry for that. I told her no need I knew she was doing what she thought was right. She pulled me down and said I love you my little girl. My mother died the following week. Id she only knew how happy she made me.