I am 33 and I am home with a six month old baby. I am a reluctant wife and mother. I have worked since I was 14, baby sitting, hostess, server, office clerk, retail, front desk clerk, and up till my baby was born as an accounting clerk in a large multinational firm. I never and I mean never expected to be in this situation. His deal is that I stay home and take care of his baby until he is at least in school and then maybe I go back to work, I will be forty by then, and he will cover all the bills. If he doesn't insist on another one, all he talks about is how they were four boys and how much fun they had and he can't really see how his son can be an only child. The baby is six months old so I probably have a year before I will have to face the music on that front. He doesn't like to hear any excuses from me, he pushes them away and tells me that when the time comes I will be more than ready for number two and so on. Just have them in a row and one day I will wake up and it will all be over. Happy life. For him, he wants that but I am the one that has to give it to him.

My background is that I have never had any desire or intentions of being in a relationship, I am not that type and frankly I don't like being bossed around by a guy. And I don't like being bossed around by my husband who insisted on getting married once I was pregnant. I suck it up because I have no choice. I also have to suck up his constant demands on me, I just don't like sex but he can't understand that. How can I have gone 32 years without once ever having had to have a man rule my life and find myself with a baby boy of all things and a man who won't leave me alone? I try, I have no choice I cannot support myself and the baby, I try. One day I am perfectly poor and happy and the next day this man has me under his thumb.

He has no business loving me, I am truly not worth it. I don't have money or a college degree and I didn't grow up like he did. I do my best to be a good wife and mother, but I have to hold my tongue when he bosses me around. I am thankful that my grandmother made me learn how to cook but that is the very thing that got me in trouble, this man likes how I cook for him.