That is a paraphrased quote from a movie, but I have been thinking alot about those words lately.

I had a very bad breakup with a woman several months ago and I have come to the realization that I can't live without her. I can't. I have slid downhill since we broke up. I lost my job. I used to pride myself in that martial arts and physical fitness was all one needed. For my whole life I've refused to take any kind of drug, even aspirin. Never smoked or drank.

Now my doctor has me on Lexapro for depression, Metformin to regulate my blood sugar and a couple of other medicines. I can't sleep. I haven't set foot inside the dojo in months. I am a wreck.

A scene I saw in a movie keeps playing itself back.

This guy tries to get back with his girlfriend who does not love him at all anymore and she says, "Do you know why movies are better than real life?"

"Why?" He asks, "Are movies better than real life?"

"Because," She answers in a purry, breathy whisper, "In a movie the credits roll, the music starts and you know it's over."

She then smacks him, "Don't you get it? It's OVER! IT'S OVER!"

I know the credits rolled on our relationship long ago. I just can't accept it.