I hate my life, nothing goes right. I know it's hard for some to understand but I should be alive. I often feel like I'm not supossed to be alive! When I was little my aunt told of how I was an accident. Not because my parents weren't married but because my mother couldn't have any more kids (doctors what do they know?! LOL). Where ever I go, I get strange looks and stares. It's like something is not right? People who do not know me hate me (and I'm not just saying that)I have been told this. Even my own father is not too crazy about me. It's funny cause we look like before and after pictures, but hey what can you do! I want to die and be at peace. If it weren't for me not wanting to leave my only brother alone or causing him pain I would've taken my life long ago. I managed to start a small property bussines and made a little profit from it to leave to my brother when I've added a little more to it, I will put it all in his name. I left one property for my best friend who doesn't always understand me, but has always been there for each other even when family was not!
To my brother: I know you will never read this but I LOVE YOU! I always looked up to you and always wanted to be like you! That's why I took the jobs I did and got the motorcycle. God gave me the best brother!!!!! I LOVE U