Not Wanting It

It started over a year ago. Ted was 20 I was almost 17. I hadn't had sex of anykind, only felt tits on two girls, one let me suck on them. That same girl let me feel her pussy under her skirt but over her panties. I at least got my fingers through the leg hole of her panties and got to feel her pussy hair. I admit I jacked off all the time, still do. I had seen some porn, some bi, and a lot of anal hetero porn. I was intrigued by the idea of buttfucking. I almost had the girl who let me suck on her tits and feel her pussy talked into trying it knowing she couldn't get knocked up that way. Unusually horny after feeling her up I went over to Teds apartment and had some beers, watched porn and got stoned. After that and I found out later a muscle relaxer, he started jacking on the couch next to me, and we both got naked. He reached over to jack me and moved my hand to his cock. It was much longer than mine 10 inches or so but was thin.

With anal porn on and me relaxed and stoned I let him fuck me. He lubed up and slowly but steadily pushed into me. After a few strokes I relaxed and he was fucking me in earnest. I confess I didn't mind it at the time and it was satisfying my curiosity about anal, bi anal, and even just having sex in general. I stayed over, and he got me to suck him hard again that night and he fucked me again. I remember shitting out what seemed like a bunch of sperm out of my butt that just wouldn't quit. He said he'd not even jacked off in several days. The next morning I was on my back, my legs wrapped around his butt with him stroking in and out of me again. When he was about to cum he stuck it in my mouth. I hated it but he came inside my mouth then held my mouth shut so I swallowed. He had me shower with him and during that he soaped up his hand and jacked me off all over his belly.

I didn't mind, it wasn't forced or anything, though I sure didn't want his cock just out of my ass into my mouth; but I tried it and thought that was it. Ted wanted more and more, and though I agreed a few weeks later and let him have a night with me again, I gave him a complete BJ and got fucked, he wanted more. I just couldn't do it, didn't want to be in a gay relationship and actually didn't want to be gay or bi. I wanted girls. That wasn't enough for Ted, I told him out in a park where he saw me one evening. He said he needed to fuck some more and I told him to find another guy or girl who wanted it. Instead he hit me several times and pushed me behind some bushes and pulled off all my clothes and fucked me dry on the ground. After all he said was "You know you wanted it too". Then he left taking my clothes. He told me to make my way back to his place and he'd give them back to me. His place was only a block away and I got there totally naked without being seen (I hope). He demanded a naked BJ before he'd give me his clothes. He had video of me naked blowing him after that. Now he fucks me whenever he wants, I've been blackmailed into giving BJ's, getting fucked, and getting BJs and handjobs by another guy for over a year. He wants a gay lover and I want my ass and mouth left alone unless it's by a girl. I had this one girl who let me lick her pussy and gave me BJ's. She's kinda fat but is OK, she finally let me fuck her pussy but I went soft in the middle of it, thinking of all the times I've had to be on my back with a cock slamming in and out of me.
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