Update 1: On Fiance's Hot Friend

I can't get him out of my mind. At this point we are pretty close as friends. The lust is always there at the forefront. I'm not one to cheat, but I need to explore my other avenues before getting tied down into marriage. Besides, it wouldn't be fair to my fiance if I let our engagement continue while I'm caught up like this.

My plan is to make a move the next time I see his friend, and see how he reacts. If he accepts, I think it's worth exploring. If he rejects, then I'll probably end up proceeding to get married to my fiance.

My fiance is a good guy, and I love him. But we also started this relationship when we were very young, and just stuck to it because it's what we knew and we love each other. I've been his for years now, but I don't even know what it's like to be with another man. Or even have a man buy me a g*ft. So I think the hot friend is worth looking into, with how stuck he has been in my mind.

I love watching him do yardwork and all the other things my fiance can't do. I love how he likes to be outside and get dirty. I love when he buys me things without conditions. I love how sexual and flirty he is and how sensitive he can be. I haven't been this attracted to someone ever. I can't even masturbate now without thinking about him and his strong arms and broad shoulders. I'm scared with what is ahead, but I'm really to excited to worry about that right now.