Good Times And Questions

I must admit that this Covid lockdown has certainly been a game changer. Feeling suitably bored and being cooped inside and began to enjoy walking around my apartment in the nude which I found entertaining.

My neighbor Deloris and I have been getting together regularly for coffee, feeling safe with each other because we never go out. Deloris is black and I am white. We are both divorced. I am fifty-two and she is forty-eight so we have a lot in common.

She had just come over and while we were starting to have our coffee I confessed how I had been going nude around the apartment. She said how that sounded like fun and suggested that he have our coffee in the buff. It was just the two of us of course, so we took off our clothes and it was wonderful to enjoy that together. We did this several more times and being that open with one another made us feel much closer and in ways which I’m sure we wouldn’t have.

I was surprised because Deloris seemed to enjoy being a bit flirty, so I started, too. The two of us had talked before about our lives and how we had both had our fill of men and serious relationships, so it was nice to just have this female rapport like that. We both like that it was teasingly suggestive and this was alluring.

When I was a girl I had several secret Sapphic trysts with several other girls. I was quite average, never got into trouble and did well in school, so nobody ever suspected that innocent little me was doing things like that. It was just a passing phase and fun. But when Deloris seemed open to there being maybe more to our naked get togethers, I found myself interested in a way that I had not been in many years and I will admit that I was certainly encouraging.

It really was not difficult to find ourselves becoming loving and having sex. It just felt so good and was so easy. We both savored the experience. Deloris admitted that she had never done anything like this before and was surprised by how enticing it was. I lied and said that I never had either, not wanting her to think that I was a lesbian on the prowl or something. But our love making was so delicious, and I know in art it was he racial difference which made it seem even more exotic. I simply couldn’t get enough of her ebony body and she couldn’t get enough of my white body.

While I can’t say that we are in love with each other as such, we do have very strong romantic feelings which have led to our talking about living together and continuing our relationship in I suppose you would have to say a more lesbian way.

She is quite convinced that she would like this, and I am more hesitant to commit to being this lesbian in spite of my obvious tendencies which I now realize that I do have. Which is part of my problem, in that I have never wanted to be a full time lesbian as I like men and have never wanted to renounce the fact that I do. Yet at the same time sex with Deloris is great and I thoroughly enjoy when we fuck, which is quite often. Most of all I am not sure how I would tell my grown son about this or if he would understand that his mom just feels like living with another woman.

So does anyone out there have any advice on how to handle this situation?
Some real and authentic replies would be most welcome. And no, I don’t need to hear from anyone telling me how it is immoral for two women to be having sex and feelings for one another, thank you very much.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jul 22, 2020 at 2:18 PM

I can personally tell you that a good number of divocred middle-aged women have found great joy and happiness with a female sex friend. It is just such a nice change of pace. And yes, many live together without considering temselves to be lesbians - just ramatic freinds. I think that it is the label twhich causes the problem. I know that it always has for me, and i don't lie to think of myself as being either bis-sexual or a lesbian. I just enjoy what I enhoy and hang the labels.
My advice would be why not go for it? So far as your son is concerned, just tell him that you are going to have a female room mate and you are no obligation to provide any details beyond that.
I wish you both success and happness. I think that you will find it.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jul 23, 2020 at 1:21 AM

I certainly agree with the other commenter. Our entire society would benefit from being more openminded and stop labeling people as straight or gay or bi or poly or whatever.
We're just people. And if we connect with someone and enjoy their company whether it's sexual, emotional, spiritual or any combination, that's a good thing.
You and your friend have found some light in a very dark and disturbing time. Revel in it and be glad that you've got each other. Forget the labels and just live your life.
As far as telling your son or anyone else, I also agree that you don't have to share the personal details, though you also don't have to be ashamed of anything whatsoever.
I wish you both the very best as well.

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