Life Choice

I am a thirty four year old lesbian married for four years. We talked about adopting a child, disabled, underprivileged, minority, but my best male friend talked me out of it. Have my own, WASP blonde blue eyed. Of course he offered himself, he wanted a WASP blue eyed blonde girl. I did what he wanted, and what he wanted was real live intercourse based conception.

I went along, pretending it was just part of getting a baby. My wife was not in agreement insisting on artificial insemination, with an anonymous donor. Today I can't separate myself from my baby's father, my marriage is under a lot of stress, divorce stress. I know that what I feel for him is not romantic love, it is something else, something much stronger. Regardless I asked him to recognize his daughter, I want her to have her daddy everyday of her life.

I can't in good conscience deny her a father mother upbringing, and this means I have to accept my role in her life, even if this means I will divorce my wife and marry my daughter's father.