Looking For The Kick

I'm a straight male in my early thirties though maybe its better not to label me. But its how i feel, even if my story below describes more layers of me.
I have and had a lot of sex which I definitely enjoy. I have a high sex drive and i just need this to function. Its kind of important for me.
A couple of years ago I started to feel restless in my sex life though it was fullfilled and plenty, so i started looking for some additional kink. Porn and vanilla sex doesn't apply as kink in my book.
I started with gradually dominating-not hardcore- and some BDSM and proceeded with watching which is very much underrated if i may say so.
First loved to watch a woman masturbate. Much better was watching girl on girl action.
This was my first step to the threesome sex because at some point i joined them. FMF action is fucking amazing, no doubt but the special part i felt was that i loved the feeling i got sharing my date with somebody else. This pattern became my new addiction and as much as i loved girl on girl action, i wanted to see my "woman" getting fucked by another man and me watching. So when opportunity came up, i tried a threesome mfm, which absolutely blew my mind.
After a great time of watching and getting off, my dick was still hard and wouldn't get soft even after i fucked my girl several hours. I came a few times and every time only looking to my male partner fucking her made me hard again. Fucking amazing night I'm telling you.
So that was my thing and I didn't believe that it could get much better but in another adventurous night, the peak came when I discovered that i absolutely fucking get off dominating both of my partners during our session.
At some point the yearning became that high that I set my male partner to suck my dick which was one of the best heads i received.
After a couple of other sessions, I couldn't forget the feeling I got from getting head from a man, I felt the thirst for my tongue to touch a cock and my mouth got watery to suck a cock as well. I tried it at the very moment and i utterly enjoyed it especially the feeling of the soft skin on my tongue, the precum and the hot cum afterwards. Needless to say i swallowed every drop of it. I got off that much that afterwards I fucked my female partner senseless. I just couldn't stop. It was fantastic. Don't get me wrong, I love licking pussy but a cock is delicious as well as it proved.
After this night i became feverish to go further and discover more on this field. I had decided to fuck the ass of my male partner if possible, which i did and was awesome. I couldn't get enough. The harsh moanings from a male voice is such a turn on and the hard muscles beneath your hands so different than a female but also good.
After a while of going down this road of fucking innuendos i felt- again- the need for something new and started to wonder how it would feel to get fucked in the ass.
After i thought about it for a while and once opportunity presented, i decided to try it. It was good, a bit of uncomfortable at the beginning and sometimes during the process but combined with me licking pussy, it got me totally hot and I couldn't stop coming. I don't think I ever came that hard in my life before. Having the girl slourping all my cum afterwards made it even better.
After this experience I believed I"m maybe gay so I tried once gay sex solo -without a girl- and it wasn't that great. Even the male threesome i tried at some point wasn't that fitting for me though i came but it didn't gave me that feeling of totally desire.You know what I mean ?
But it cleared up the kink I'm into, so it was kind of ok that I did it.
I now knew sex just with a guy doesn't do the trick for me as by being with just a girl which was still nice especially if she behaved as a sub which is kind of mandatory for me. - Women who want to take control aren't my thing, though in special occasions I can do them also. It just have to come up naturally-
Even so experiencing this side of sexuality made me look very different at the field and elevated my "getting laid" score enormous. Getting head from strangers during the day became very often and i totally enjoy it. Doesn't matter if girl or guy. Fucking strangers outdoors also but i need to be attracted to the person to fuck them. Also male or female doesn't matter. But letting someone fuck me or me giving head is something I still don't do easily. I need to be totally turned on to do it. Which only happens in a particular way, as I said with my all time favorite MFM threesome. Male fucks the girl and I fuck the guy. Various combinations in this can be possible. This is such a turn on for me. Only thinking of it makes me want to wank one off. Even during the day. Even at this moment.

But as always at some point Im beginning to feel restless so now I'm looking for my new assignment and thought of the right time to build a regular loving relationship with a girl. Getting married, having kids.
But is it even possible with that kind of a kinky life? I certainly know I can't do monogamy. But wouldn't mind to try swinging with her . As a couple. Always being honest isn't a problem for me.
Let me know what you think.
For the record. Everything and everyone i do is consensual and legal.
Its the first time I wrote everything down.
Thanks for reading.