I Live In A Three Way With My Husband And Another Woman

As I got close to graduating from college my mother insisted on me getting married. I was not interested but her pressure brought me to the point of getting married to a guy I had known for a couple of years. We got married, on our marriage night I locked myself in the bathroom. I did not let him see me naked, I didn't not have sex with him. I did the rest, I cooked and cleaned but I did not sleep with him. Three months after I got married he mounted me against my will, I had never used birth control and I got pregnant. Everyone was happy but me.

By the time the baby was born he was having an affair with a woman from his work. He brought her to the house while I was still recovering from the baby's birth and he made love to her in front of me, kissed her, fondled her, undressed her and mounted her. When he took her in his arms I got aroused, very aroused while I watched. I watched while he mounted her, I was drawn to her naked, seeing her with her legs apart when he went down on her, when he mounted her and had intercourse with her. I didn't love my husband, I was in love with her.

He continued to have his affair with his girlfriend from work. After one sex session with her while I watched he asked me if I wanted her, to get on her and do what I wanted. I wanted to get on, but I was too embarrassed to go ahead. He sat beside her and held her legs apart, running his finger up and down her slit and in and out of her vagina. I didn't do anything so he pushed me on the bed and fucked me.

I lay beside her, she stayed on the bed. We were both mostly naked, without pants or panties. After a few minutes she reached over and put her hand in between my legs, playing with me. She twisted my clit with her forefinger and thumb and I had an orgasm, the first time I ever had an orgasm. She then gave me a kiss on my still sensitive pussy.

I know now that my early issues are due to my lesbian feelings. Unfortunately she isn't as drawn to me as I am to her. She is willing to play, to use her hand and fingers and sometimes her mouth to bring me to orgasm, but she is more love with him than me. She knows how I feel, I have told her how I feel. My husband knows how I feel, but I am his wife and I still have to have sex with him. Most of the time she watches, just like he has me watch when he has sex with her, and after he has sex with me he lets her be close with me.