My Story...

Okay, so my story is that I am a 30 year old virgin, I never dated any men, never been kissed by a man, so I never done anything phisically with a man, no intercourse, no nothing.
I was very uncertain about my looks when I was a teen, I felt like the ugly duckling even though never told me I was ugly before, I was just very insecure about my whole body.
After I became a mature grown woman I realised that guys look after me, they try to flirt with me, but I become very anxious around men I don't know exactly how to act or what to say, it's like I get a brain fog I don't wanna say something stupid, I am kinda frustrated that I am a virgin I feel sometimes that there is typed virgin on my forehead and I feel very embarassed about my "condition".
I actually chatted with some cool guys online and they said that I am beautiful and asked me out but I chickened out and I refused them.
I wish I could defeat my shyness and not be so timid around men especially around a man that I like because I desire so so much to have a boyfriend and to be in a relationship but it is just so hard for me because I have no experience in love or men whatsover. I just need an advice anything that would help me to rise my self confidence.
Thank you for reading my post I hope it wasn't too long or boring.