I Am Gong Crazy, I Need A Man To Shock Me Into Obedience

I am 36, unmarried, and I enjoy the company of older men who have no problem treating a woman to a rough nite. My confusion has always been between a man who is conversational, intelligent, and a man who can draw the paleo woman out of me. As a preteen I read everything I could about Vikings. I dreamed of being the kidnapped village maiden and the Viking who beats her into submission and takes her to his village to be his slave girl.

The Vikings have become pussies, the only men who know how to keep a woman in her place are Arabs. In my twenties I lived for four years in Ankara as the junior wife of a Turkish landowner. He got tired of me and gave me to his first wife to be her servant. I found where he hid my passport and ran away. I miss the beatings and the sex, but being relegated as his first wife's maid and being ignored by him caused me to leave.

I am sexually frustrated with this pandemic, what I need my head pulled back, and a man on my back.