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My Spouse
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Straight Female / 26
Loving My New Husband, My Lord On This Earth
In my Junior year of college I spent two weeks in village in Ecuador with my church. The lady we talked to, I'll call her Juana her real name, referred to her husband as 'mi Señor', my Lord in English. I reminded her there was only one Lord and that id Jesus Christ. She answered by saying her husband was her Lord on earth. And everyday I was there she treated him like a Lord and Master. I can only say I came home with a sense of her oppression.
Moving forward to now, I am a college graduate and a junior member of the Finance Department. My boss, 19 years my senior was with me when I made some remarks. He quieted me by putting his fingers on my lips while telling me he was going to parent me, and went on to bawl me out and correct my views. That was the first time I had 'that' feeling. When he got up to leave the room he followed up by telling me he was interfering because he cared about me.
As the days went on, when he spoke to another young female employee jealousy ran through my heart. He saw it one afternoon and he touched my nose and said 'you are loved'. I lept at the opportunity to fix his coffee, to talk with him, to sit beside him, to walk beside him. My coworkers called me his puppy. I tried to control my impulses but it was no use.
On a lunch occasion, we were in a booth, I was smarting from being left out of a meeting. He pointed to the cashier, not her he said, pointing to woman in another booth, not her he said again, pointed to a woman who had just sat down, not her either he said. It's you, but as long as you are a child you are going to get your feelings hurt.
He is my Lord in earth, where he goes I shall go, I put my hand in his hand. I understand Juana now and it makes me happy that she too has her Lord on earth. I will grow up and be molded in his hands to be the woman he wants me to be.
Moving forward to now, I am a college graduate and a junior member of the Finance Department. My boss, 19 years my senior was with me when I made some remarks. He quieted me by putting his fingers on my lips while telling me he was going to parent me, and went on to bawl me out and correct my views. That was the first time I had 'that' feeling. When he got up to leave the room he followed up by telling me he was interfering because he cared about me.
As the days went on, when he spoke to another young female employee jealousy ran through my heart. He saw it one afternoon and he touched my nose and said 'you are loved'. I lept at the opportunity to fix his coffee, to talk with him, to sit beside him, to walk beside him. My coworkers called me his puppy. I tried to control my impulses but it was no use.
On a lunch occasion, we were in a booth, I was smarting from being left out of a meeting. He pointed to the cashier, not her he said, pointing to woman in another booth, not her he said again, pointed to a woman who had just sat down, not her either he said. It's you, but as long as you are a child you are going to get your feelings hurt.
He is my Lord in earth, where he goes I shall go, I put my hand in his hand. I understand Juana now and it makes me happy that she too has her Lord on earth. I will grow up and be molded in his hands to be the woman he wants me to be.
